Day 1

Im new to all this so cut me some slack I would just like to write on a keyboard for a couple of mins get my feeling down on "paper" if u will...Thank u for taking your time to listen to my story So lets Began my Name is Bryan Colon and these are my thoughts i barely write so if there are any mistakes im sorry in advance. I hate saying my age so ill make it a bit more interesting and say ive been on earth for 19 yrs now and i can honestly say im lost in mostly everthing i do and i feel blaming it on the fact that im a teenager is stupid and selfish so im lost cause IM lost not cause teens are lost..oh by the way its the year 2009 and this world i live in is going threw a recession which in english means were all doing pretty badly economically wise Ok so where was i yeah oh yeah Im lost and what i mean by that is that im at the point of my life that my decisions arent made for me any more and that what i do is what i feel i do for me and no ones else i dont rely onthe path or my father or mothers cause im buliding my own path and if my outcomes are great then im a success but if bad thenive fail i will have to try again torward like my dad says the "right" path but what is the right path anyway and who the hell knows how to follow it some can thing following God is the right path some can think following money is the right path. i just feel that i have nothing to pursuit for at this confuse and unavoidable part of my life i feel like im having a mid life crisis when i should have it at 35 to 40. Dont Get me wrong there are things in my life that i dont or ever will see negative like my girlfriend who i can admit im deeply in love with shes my other half in so many ways an i no it might be corny but she completes me lol wow i felt corny just writing it but i cant help what i feel and its true if it wasnt for her i would be alot more depress then now she is my guiding light with her i can see the furture and it is a bright one so what i really want in my life right now is to find MY PATH and hopefully i will ...